Big News-MTV

I'm sure you all have heard of the show "Made" that airs what seems like all the time on MTV. Well, this morning I heard on the announcements that the producers are coming to my high school to interview potential people to work hard toward their dreams for a month straight. I am actually seriously considering taking part in an interview in a couple days. I guess they video tape you and stuff and then ask you a few questions about what goal you would like to work toward. If I had to pick one, it'd be between singing and acting or maybe both. However, doing both of those at the same time seems like a lot of work for me, haha.

So, yesterday I was watching "The World Of Jenks". I think that show is also on MTV but I'm not positive. Anyway, Andrew Jenks was following the life of a comedian in this episode. It made me think that maybe I wanna be a comedian someday. People laugh at me all the time....wait....I hope they aren't laughing AT me...hmm. Haha, see? I made you laugh, right? Okay, maybe not but whatever. It's kind of hard to find humor in text I suppose. I think the only reason people laugh at my jokes is because I make stupid jokes seem funny by making ridiculous facial expressions and I laugh like a freak. I don't know. I want to do a lot of things in my life before I die. And that leads me to my next tv show..

"The Buried Life"...also on MTV I think. Don't quote me on that, haha. But, the episode yesterday was all the guys from The Buried Life, crashing a parade. They dressed in purple suits and danced like idiots. But I must admit, it was pretty hot :P In the Buried Life, they go around doing all the things they want to do before they die. A bucketlist. I should probably make one of those eventually. There are so many things I want to do. I don't know if I could accomplish all of it. And most of the things that I want to do are things I can't do until I'm 18. I won't be 18 until June..SUCKS, right?

Enough about television. So how am I doing? Just fabulous. Weird, cuz I am pretty sure just the other week I was miserable. Something changed. I don't know. But I am on top of the world right now. And no, I am NOT on drugs :)

Do you think I could be bipolar? My best friend, Sam thinks I might be. My mom and my grandma are. And I'm pretty sure my dad might be bipolar, too, but I wouldn't know because I don't see him or talk to him. There are so many different types of bipolar disorder. It's pretty hard to self-diagnose, but I think I'll try anyway. I think I might have Cyclothymia. It's a more mild form of Bipolar disorder. It makes a person change in moods from milder depression to hypomania. Mania is like...super happiness, haha. It leads someone to make very grand decisions. I don't think I ever get manic completely. Hmm..it says: "People with cyclothymia are more likely to have relatives with bipolar disorder and vice versa." That's interesting! I have all the symptoms, too. I can't be sure, but I could possibly have Cyclothymia. How wonderful.