"Won't Go Back"

Confusion within

I cannot win

Fight til I fall

Death calls

Wet eyes, 

Louder cries,

Red hands, 

Buried under land.

When will you save me?

I've got no where to go

I am wounded daily

It's a bloody show.

When can I rest?

Blood shot eyes

I don't ask for the best, 

But don't feed me lies.

When will this stop?

The continuous pain

From bottom to top

Dark red blood stains

When will I be free? (x2)

To just be

Me

I am not in control
I fell into a hole

I'm destined to fail

I fell off the trail

I cannot choose

Anything but booze

I'm not me anymore

My heart is torn

Evil has taken over me

Nothing left here to see

But grief and anger

To you, I'm a danger

Don't leave me behind

Myself I will find

Give me time

To let me shine

Now hold me close to your heart

A better future we'll start

Don't ask me how

But I promise you now

I won't go back 

It was only strength I lacked

I'm finally me.

~Ashley Jackson